I’ve been reading /grin. I’ve let the letters and ideas settle on my skin where they briefly flare blackly and then seep into me.* I love my life. For the first time in years I am completely free. By His blood I am free. I am not in love with anyone but my son and [...]

Seriously. I finally get it. I’m finally doing something that doesn’t feel like work. And I am really very good at it. I know that sounds anything but humble but bear with me. It is a total light bulb moment so I’m allowed to be a little on the ‘gee-lookee-how-godlike-I-am’ bandwagon. Everything is falling into place. [...]

I feel as if I’m in the eye of a word storm. That if I so much as blink the consonants will cut, the vowels masticate, the words swallow and the sentences digest me. I know that the ideas will then reconstitute me but I don’t know if I have the courage to move. I [...]

I’m in trouble, love. I’ve managed to lose Milo the German Shepherd. It might not sound like such a big deal but my landlord is a very rigid human being and the one thing that just about makes him kick the bucket anger wise is when I am careless. The trouble therefore is that I [...]

I cooked dinner for the almost Meirings at my house last night. Engaged couples are so easy to talk to and wine helps for those ‘oh my word I’m going to drown them they are so cute and happy’ moments. Needless to say I was quite unsteady by the end of the evening. The problem [...]

My landpeople are away for the week. I think they are lovely but the quiet is blissful. D goes to bed with the minimum fuss and I am free to mangle my toes on the gorgeous dark tiled steps.* I’m hopping around in what I can assure you is not an alluring manner. I am [...]

I feel awesome today. I have my /bounce back :). It has quite a lot to do with the amount of caffeine and sugar I have in. I think I have finally cracked the formula for the exact of amount of the above stimulants I need to surf the edge of sleepless despair. Cowabunga baby. [...]

This has been a particularly bad week for sleep. I am really starting to consider sleeping tablets. D is sleeping through* so it should be worth trying. It is its own kind of drug though. I would class insomnia as a hallucinogenic. No cool dancing 10cm pygmies or anything (those were fun) just the world [...]

I didn’t write to you yesterday. I wish there was some heart achingly lovely reason why not but all I have to offer is that I just didn’t want to. I saw you on Sunday and knew I would see you again last night and writing to the you to whom this is addressed but [...]

I have not slept decently (i.e. more than 3 hours consecutively and more than 4 hours in total per night) this past week so please forgive the grammatically /cringe quality of today’s ygm. Last night was awesome for 2 reasons: 1. I made a rocking bastilla* and fudge filled vanilla muffins** and V&P came for [...]