Of snow tectonics

Well. I went on my first date in ages last night and it was lovely. We actually had stuff to talk about, we even skipped the movie to continue talking. When he laughed his eyes crinkled and he had this completely feral sexy-as-all-hell smile that makes me shiver right down to my toes. So there was more than just the previously mentioned knuckle dragging chemistry.

But that does not matter. Because he does not wtb*.

People, seriously. Am I that scary? Really? Why on earth does really listening/tuning in and making like obvious, have men run for the hills while muttering thrift store blessings and crossing themselves repeatedly?

“We need to talk”.

These are the 4 words that in combination make me want to volunteer to man an industrial vacuum cleaner for the Mir Space Station…for the rest of time. It is never followed by say, “Look at those lovely butterflies…my goodness…I do believe your glass is empty. Let me top it up for you while quoting Yeats” or “because what you have to say is so indispensible to my general well being and causes such joy that I literally need to talk to you” or even “let’s learn Catalan”. No. It is ALWAYS some horrifyingly sweet way of whomever to tell me something that makes me want to Van Gogh my delicate, ladylike ears.

Understandable, really, though it may be. Just once… just freaking once, I would like to be worth putting common sense aside. I don’t know where it would have ended up or even if the chemistry could have resulted in something meaningful. I would just have liked the “let’s see where this goes” option.

Ugh. Freaking whatever. It was lovely while it lasted /grin. Maybe at some point in my scary-beyond-all-belief existence will I find someone that can speak to me, have me speak to them and here’s a thought, want to stay for more.

1. Word of the day: bewilderment

2. Insight of the day: Apparently writing about people is a surefire way of having them freak out on you.

3.State of the pool: good coffee: black, sweet & steaming.

4. Random thought: I don’t know if I’ve ever tried to eat crayons. It is possible – the colours tend to look really good.

5. Awesomest lines: Read Cassander’s post.

6. Scripture line: Mark 9:34 And He summoned the crowd with His disciples, and said to them, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. 35 “For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it. 36 “For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world, and forfeit his soul? 37 “For what will a man give in exchange for his soul? 38 “For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will also be ashamed of him when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels.”

New American Standard Bible : 1995 update. 1995 (Mk 8:34-38). LaHabra, CA: The Lockman Foundation.

*wtb: Also used as “willing to buy”, suggesting an interest in purchase. Commonly used in MMORPGs.

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