Everything about me feels wobbly. On the one hand it is great because although I wobble I won’t fall but considering that I get motion sick when wearing earphones and a terribly clever producer plays with sound, my resolve is decidedly green gilled.

It seems as if everything is teetering. Like that token/coin “game” at fairgrounds and gambling houses – everything is so close to falling over and paying out but it seems like it is requiring more and more of me and I am starting to wonder if the last few coins will make it happen.

This is stupid I know as those coins weren’t mine to start with. It is all only because He deems it so and the stupid human thing to do is to want to make it happen for myself. I know that if I were to rely on only me I will so solidly see my derriere that I might just as well use it as a mural and the background for my by then defunct business cards.*

And yet that lovely little ball of worry remains. Why is it that all stress seems to be located squarely in my solar plexus? I wonder where other people’s stress lie?

1. Word of the day: allay
2. Insight of the day: I need to learn to not always speak my mind…ok, more honestly, my heart.
3. State of the pool: Murky and left wanting
4. Music/Random thought: C continues to melt my mind with amazing music – Now it is DJ Fresh – The Private Press…wow. I actually zoned out a few times while listening to this stuff. Like a cerebral massage with popping candy.
5. Awesomest lines: JB hasn’t finished the story yet but told me that he will be publishing a proper website so yay for that. So I will steal from the Young Man of yesterday:

MUSIEK Aan hierdie hart se tenger kelk, het U getik en fyn, uitdeinend sing die glas, sy melodie van pyn. U lê ‘n vinger op die rand, wat skrynend, weerloos tril, en skielik word my hart, se fyne smartsang stil. Ernst van Heerden

6. Scripture line: Ephesians (again) 2
¹As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, ²in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. ³All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature^[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. ⁴But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, ⁵made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. ⁶And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, ⁷in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. ⁸For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— ⁹not by works, so that no one can boast. ¹⁰For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

*On 2nd thought perhaps not the wisest course of action when in Sales & Marketing**
**While we are at it, quickly review the abbreviation of my chosen profession…nicely underlines why I should rather be praying.

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